Letting auditions go!

How many of you artists have finished an audition, and then it takes you a whole 48 hours, even longer sometimes, to let it go? Either you replay your performances in your head, or try to remember what you might have said to the panel. What did the panel say to you? Was it before or after you sang? Did their facial expressions say, "oooo I like her" or "I'm bored?" Did I babble too much? Was I supposed to memorise the script, even if I got it last minute and they only said to familiarise myself with the material? Did I sound nervous? Should I have maybe belted there? Was my skirt too short? Maybe I shouldn't have done that neck role to loosen up before I sang. Did I seem desperate?

Obsessing over an audition that's finished can be so detrimental. I have travelled the wrong way trying to get home, because my head was still in the room. My brain almost feels paralysed after a casting; I can't think.

So how do we let the casting experience go, and just move on with our lives? I DON'T KNOW! HELP!

I wonder if the answer is in this saying, "If it's meant to be, it will be?" No point wasting away 48 hours of your life on a couple minutes you will never get back. How many times have I had amazing auditions, yet have never gotten a call back, then had what I thought were sure losses, and then got the job. We can analyse a casting to death. At the end of the day, we will never know what was really going on in the heads of the panel, and if we were in the moment, we will never be able to truly replay the performance. 

I am so guilty of over analysing everything, that it literally can consume my whole day. This needs to stop. The obsession needs to stop. We work so hard, and for so many hours, for 2 minutes in a room. We get invested, and so yes, it's tough to just LET IT GO! AAAAHHHH....if someone has the answer please help?

I am in rehab now, courtesy of my husband, and will update you on my progress, as well with any methods that seem to work.

God Speed!

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